Walking the dog just now was an odd experience. It was completely quiet. There was no one on the streets, just me, Bodhi and a testdrive for Tram 19. There wasn’t even a breeze, so I could very clearly hear my own footsteps. And it got me thinking, as it usually does.
It made me think of unemployment. Unemployment kind of numbs you down. It slows you down until you settle into a life rhythm where walking the dog, washing the windows, checking Popo, watching a movie and getting some groceries feels like an accomplished day. It isn’t, of course – not really. But you still feel like you’re busy all day with not that much at all. In my case these days are interjected with socializing and hanging out with dear friends. Lie had vacation during my first week of unemployment (just like last summer btw, I’m beginning to see a pattern here!) so we hung out a lot. And of course there was Pinkpop, and the day at the beach. Lie’s birthday party. I mean, I know how to enjoy myself. I also happen to have some way excellent sweet friends that I can spend time with and those times I treasure like an idiot. The day at the beach that we ended with tapas and sangria was made of awesome. The fact that it took place in the first week of June makes it even more insane/awesome.
But in the back of my mind there’s always this nagging doubt. What if I can’t find a job? Dammit, if only I could have built my CV a little more, so I wouldn’t be in this transition period between recruitment and training – I’m overqualified for recruitment now, and a bit too junior to be a full-fledged trainer. And guess what is hard to find jobs for at the moment. *sighs* Today was a day where I was feeling the bitter taste of despair. I got rejected last Friday for an IT Recruitment position that I went to interview and although the weekend did a great job of distracting me from that, going back to the drawing board on Monday utterly sucked. It was not a good day for job hunting today, I noticed quickly when I found NO interesting jobs AT ALL. And that bitter taste made me feel horrible. I mean, yes I sent out my application for unemployment services and everything, but still, I’m supposed to work, dammit.
And then some job agency called and they got a trainersjob in Delft that looks perfect to me. <3 I’ll go interview with them on Wednesday, and hopefully they’ll push my CV toward their client… but I think they will. On paper I’m such an ideal candidate that I’m sure the recruiter was cheering when he got me on the phone. Oh, and I charmed the socks off him, too. I tend to do that, when I’m in recruitment processes. I become this charming cheeky Lannie that’s so much more awesome than I usually am. It’s weird, really. Especially because sometimes I wish I could be like that all the time. Anyway! Job interview on Wednesday, will you keep your fingers crossed for me? 
*crosses fingers for tomorrow*
I tend to be like that as well in the recruitment phase. All smiles and charming, and even when I start at the job, but that energy does fade away rather quickly…
*crosses fingers*
Good luck tomorrow!!
Silly girl, you are always charming and awesome! *hugs*
*Crosses Fingers for you*
Then you should see me at a job interview. I really rock at those