on powerhunger
So, the DM drama thing. I really need to get into that here before I explode, and explain some things.
Being Staffmember is a fucking thankless job, let me tell you that. You work your ass of for the Division and take care of everything because you love the place. You put up with people’s shit, you encourage people into creativity, you help people out all over the place. You spend hours doing administration and mediation. Most of all, you take responsibility for everything that happens there. The good stuff that happens, happens. Everybody takes it for granted, and that’s fine. There’s a lot of satisfaction if things are going well, and you know it.
The bad stuff, however… make one call that is less than perfect, or make one that is good and have people criticising you about it anyway because they don’t agree with what you’ve done, and suddenly you’re powerhungry, dictatorial, evil, and dutch to boot.
Powerhungry? Oh fuck, don’t let me laugh. The WT staff works their ass of for the good of the division. Wendy put over 30 hours into getting wtdiv back online. I spent hours and hours doing administration, answering of PM’s, organising applications for different staff positions and designing ways for the WT to work better & more efficient than it did, advicing people in myriad of situations on how to handle stuff. Mieke works behind the scenes and spends hours doing Novice & Accepted administrations while people hardly even know her or see her. Is that powerhungry? I call it a fucking sacrifice.
And seriously, nobody needs asskissing. You get joy in the smooth workings of a division.
But all the shit we’re getting now… we don’t deserve that. We don’t need that either. I just want to scream to everybody to get off their fucking high horses. If you become Division Leader, I’m sure you’ll do the same things and make the same mistakes and good calls. And you’ll hate being criticized as dictatorial and powerhungry just as much, when you’re working your ass off. If you do all that, come tell me how it feels, and that you understand why I’m frustrated and angry about the whole thing.
And I know that I’ll catch shit for it here, but I want to say it nonetheless.
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I know. I feel the same. I wonder why the hell I bothered to get the site back up. I wonder why I bother updating and backupping it still if one thing we do – in good faith – suddenly makes all the effort we put into the place moot.
I don’t think we are powerhungry. I don’t think we’ve shoved things under the rug purposefully to keep a farce of friendliness and happiness going. We kept some things out of the public eye because we were asked, and just because it was the right thing to DO.
I do think that as staff we need to take a breather, step back for a moment and just exhale. I don’t think that at this point it is going to help to react on each and every single heated and unjust post that is being made. It will only draw things out longer.
But yes, I share the sentiment. We did what we could as well as we could and the amount of hate we are getting right now is not justified.
1 Lyanna said this (18/9/2005 at 12:19)
Hmm, I don’t think anyone has accused anyone except me of being powerhungry… but then again, I haven’t read the forum since yesterday and don’t intend to for a while yet.
And here I’m not even Dutch.
2 Kat said this (18/9/2005 at 16:51)
It’s the last thing I’ll say about the whole thing, Wen, don’t worry. I’m not going to touch this situation anymore. I’m sick of it.
3 Lannie said this (18/9/2005 at 17:41)
Bah, the powerhungry and sweeping under the rug comments were BS from people who like to bitch, I think. Don’t take it to heart. I say what I think… and I don’t think either of those comments are even remotely true.
4 Natalie said this (18/9/2005 at 18:33)