I’m revising my story at the moment; reading through the whole story again so I can ret-con the new plotline in. I need it to fit seamlessly, so I am re-reading stuff. And today I ended up reading the chapter that I’d originally called “Burning down the highway skyline”, which has a scene that just touches my heart.
Seamon and Joy do not have many moments of tenderness together, but this is one of them. I am not sure whether it works the way I have it in mind, but the image is so very clear in my mind. I see them outlined in the grass next to the highway, against the blue sky, smiling. They look so beautiful together for that one moment. Afterwards it all goes to shit of course, but this moment – it is one of those moments you take a snapshot of and remember for the rest of your life. And I’m not sure whether it does for you what it does for me, but for me it’s a very stark reminder to what it feels like to be stupidly in love, so heavily that your heart might burst. 
Ik kon opeens niet meer herinneren wat ik tegen hem had willen zeggen. Iets over teruggaan naar de auto misschien. Het boeide niet.
Onze blik duurde misschien maar enkele seconden, maar we keken elkaar aan en ik wilde hem weer kussen, weer seks met hem hebben, hem weer laten lachen. Ik was zo verdomde verliefd. Ik glimlachte uiteindelijk naar hem. “Kom op,” zei ik.
“Ja.” Hij nam mijn hand en gaf een kneepje, zo lief dat ik dacht dat mijn hart zou breken. “Laten we gaan.”
<3
In other news, I got another music recommendation; it’s another from Kaneda. This one’s called “Forgive me first father (our blood shall feed the earth)”. I don’t know what they mean by the title because the song is instrumental, and it doesn’t sound bloody at all. It sounds beautiful, almost ambient like.