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i don’t think there’s a contest, really

Wednesday, September 21st, 2011

I cheerfully started adding songs to my End of Year playlist on Spotify, just for kicks. I’ve heard a lot of beautiful things this year, lots of gorgeous post-rock that is perfect to dream away to, a couple of great metal songs. But one of them blasts all the others out of the water.

This is what it does:
- It touches my heart
- It makes me want to cry
- It gives me goosebumps
- It packs an emotional punch like I’ve hardly ever felt
- It makes me play it over and over again

The song is by Steak Number Eight, “The Sea Is Dying”. I’ve plugged the song before on my blog, but I just can’t shut up about it.

The only thing I wish for is that it wasn’t produced in the bedroom of a couple of teenagers, which it is. I’m spoiled where it comes to crystal clear production in the past decade or so. But even then, even so… the song is perfect. Build-up, vocals, emotional tension, melody, instruments… everything. This song does everything right, it just cuts through my soul. There are songs that I know that pack a punch, there is some video by Funeral For A Friend that makes me bawl every time I see it, but this one trumps it all.

Every other song that I will listen to this year might as well pack up and go home. This is the prettiest thing I’ll hear all year. <3

regarding experiences in a sensory deprivation tank, or “floating”

Saturday, August 13th, 2011

Reading this article on IO9 reminded me of what a sensory deprivation tank is like. I never really talked about it here because this was in May, when Lannie.net was completely down for nearly a month, but… yeah. I did that.

Not too long ago, Lie got a voucher for a spa treatment in a place that also included a ‘float’ experience. Floating is apparently lying around in a sensory deprivation tank in salt water for an hour. I was very curious about what it was like. The website said it was more of a cabin and less of a tank… not claustrophobic at all, they claimed. What basically happens is that you take a shower, and then you step into a cabin, through a hatch, into water that is indeed extremely salt (make sure you haven’t nicked yourself shaving your legs or armpits that day). They have some ambient music playing and some lights on, so you can get used to everything. Then the music fades away and you’re on your own in the cabin for the next hour. I felt hardcore and turned the lights off as well, to get the full experience. I am not particularly claustrophobic, and I’m used to relaxing/snoozing in the bath tub, so I thought I’d be fine. And indeed, after some time lying around alternating between mild boredom and letting my mind wander all over the place, I must have fallen asleep. I am not sure how long this lasted. There was no way of measuring time in there, and it was hard to differentiate between being awake or sleeping in the total floaty darkness.

What I do know is that at some point I woke up with a start. It was completely dark, still the same temperature, and I felt like forever had passed. The whole world could have died and I wouldn’t have known. How much time had passed? Had they forgotten about me? Left me here? What was the time, the date, ARGH?! Heart racing, I turned on the lights and opened the cabin to the showers, but all was gentle and quiet and I was reassured that the world still existed. A couple of minutes later the music started playing softly, indicating my time there was done and it was time to hit the showers.
And so I did. Afterwards Lie and I hung out a bit more at the float center and exchanged experiences. Lie hadn’t been claustrophobic at all, which I thought was pretty awesome because she tends to claustrophobia sometimes. She had left the lights on for most of the time though, which must have helped.

So was it as life-changing as the advertisements and the website says it is? I am not sure. It was indeed pretty damn peaceful in there. Snoozing on salt water in a body-temperature environment is a nice state of being. But I am used to snoozing in my bath tub as well (NO I do not drown, I don’t fill my bath tub all the way to the brim) and that is generally pretty much the same. Close your eyes, and then it’s dark as well.

Sadly enough the thing I remember most about the floating experience is waking up in that pure terror, not knowing how much time had passed and what the state of the world was. I felt like a day and a night had passed and was pretty weirded out that it had only been an hour. I felt like they had forgotten me, and that was a horrible feeling. So I’m not sure whether I’ll ever do it again. The website and the consultants there do encourage it, because the first time you do not get the full effect yet – but I think I’m cool with it. I’ll also be happy just floating in my own tub, thank you very much. At least that doesn’t cost me nearly 40 euros.

stardust

Thursday, July 7th, 2011

Reddit is often a source of empty amusement and fleeting giggles, but sometimes you do stumble over the little gems.

Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements– the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life– weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.
~Lawrence Krauss

Sorry stars. Thanks, though :)