Seamon and Joy do not have many moments of tenderness together, but this is one of them. I am not sure whether it works the way I have it in mind, but the image is so very clear in my mind. I see them outlined in the grass next to the highway, against the blue sky, smiling. They look so beautiful together for that one moment. Afterwards it all goes to shit of course, but this moment – it is one of those moments you take a snapshot of and remember for the rest of your life. And I’m not sure whether it does for you what it does for me, but for me it’s a very stark reminder to what it feels like to be stupidly in love, so heavily that your heart might burst.

Ik kon opeens niet meer herinneren wat ik tegen hem had willen zeggen. Iets over teruggaan naar de auto misschien. Het boeide niet.
Onze blik duurde misschien maar enkele seconden, maar we keken elkaar aan en ik wilde hem weer kussen, weer seks met hem hebben, hem weer laten lachen. Ik was zo verdomde verliefd. Ik glimlachte uiteindelijk naar hem. “Kom op,” zei ik.
“Ja.” Hij nam mijn hand en gaf een kneepje, zo lief dat ik dacht dat mijn hart zou breken. “Laten we gaan.” 

<3

In other news, I got another music recommendation; it’s another from Kaneda. This one’s called “Forgive me first father (our blood shall feed the earth)”. I don’t know what they mean by the title because the song is instrumental, and it doesn’t  sound bloody at all. It sounds beautiful, almost ambient like.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmXjsrg1Hls

2012 started with champagne, hugs, and in the company of the best friends I could wish for. Everybody was there, and the end of year playlist was wonderful and beautiful. Sitting on the edge of the couch and looking around at my group of friends talking, laughing, listening to music… and then the new year came and we opened all the blinds and fireworks erupted behind all of the windows of my neighbourhood… yeah, that was pretty glorious.

Have the best of years, people. May 2012 make all our wishes come true.

THURSDAY
We were supposed to leave at around 3pm-ish, since Kat still had to work in the morning and Derek needed to go to the hospital with his father. However due to a nasty traffic incident on the A4 the others didn’t arrive until 4pm. And with saying hi, rearranging our bagpacks over three cars and admiring the pretty car that Kat and Tijs now own, it wasn’t until 4.20pm until we could finally leave. We were with three cars: Kat, Tijs and Derek in a car, Marco and Brenda in her car, and Olli and I driving Tangy. We all drove after eachother in Italian Job fashion. Traffic was sluggish until we started taking the N-roads. All in all it took us two and a half hours before we arrived in Dessel through pretty intense rainstorms. To our chagrin we were relocated to the furthest parking lot possible, which made the walk to the camping rather grueling. Combined with an insane line before the entrance, it was not a happy thing (especially for poor Kat who had to pee like a mofo). Thankfully it didn’t rain! By 9.30pm our tent camp was standing. Tijs, Olli and I offered to get the beer from the car, so we went back to the parking lot. That was a journey that took us about 45 minutes… holy crap. All in all it took us about 2 hours to get back to the camp (this included a bite to eat on the way btw). Afterwards, we went to the 24 hour area and partied/drank beer till about 4am.

FRIDAY
The day started off with light rain, so thankfully we could sleep in. With the late bedtime the night before, we definitely needed it! I sampled quite a bit of bands that day – more than I thought I would. Less than Olli did – he was the true Metal Sampler this weekend with the amount of bands he saw! Bands I saw on Friday: Protest the Hero, Foreigner, Journey, Volbeat (was even better than on Provinssirock – they were lots of fun), Parkway Drive (who played everything I hoped for and more, even “Horizons”, for an adoring crowd that sang/cheered the tent down) <3) and finally, as Reddit would put it: Scumbag Scorpions – are on their farewell tour – refuses to play ‘Winds of Change’).
It was a good day though, full of good weather that cleared up around the end of the afternoon, good companionship, and good music.

SATURDAY
Saturday shall be known as The Day It Rained And We Got Smashed On Leffe. Not much to say here.  It drizzled with rain all day, so I never took off my Soilwork hooded sweater… and I kept my emergency poncho on for most of the day as well. But it wasn’t very cold, and near the Leffe tent we could sit out of the rain. We watched Blaas of Glory (which was hilarious) and from 1pm on, the Leffe started flowing for us… and we kind of didn’t stop anymore till late at night. We had good talks and good laughs though. Very muchly needed <3
So what bands did I see? Diablo Blvd – who were extremely sympathetic and fun, Kvelertak, Adept (both not very special), Kylesa… and then beer happened and I mostly sat at the Leffe tent. I did check out Arch Enemy while pretty smashed, where I rocked out on my own  to “We Will Rise” (I got distracted while on my way to get a chicken burger), and eventually I saw Pain as well, whose song “The Great Pretender” is definitely worth checking out.
Anyway, the day ended with lots of beer and “I loooove you man!”s, so all was right with the world. My last hit of grass was a blow in the face, so I got dizzy around 2-ish and went to bed earlier than the rest. Thankfully I didn’t get a hangover the next morning, unlike poor Marco. Derek wasn’t feeling all that hot, either.

SUNDAY
In a puzzling turn of events, the temperature doubled overnight. On Sunday around noon it suddenly heated up immensely, until we hit temperatures of about 30C, and the sky scorched clean of clouds. Thankfully this didn’t happen early in the morning, so the boys had some time to get rid of their hangovers.
Derek and I watched Rise to Remain (whose leadsinger, it turns out, is actually the son of Bruce Dickinson) and enjoyed the show. Other things I saw were Anvil (who were quite boring… sorry. Good for them that they’re on the mainstage now, though), Amorphis (which was very enjoyable, very pretty), Mastodon, couldn’t see Gwar because the metaldome was just too busy… but I did get to see Avenged Sevenfold, who proceeded to rock my socks off, like Olli promised they would. Holy crap talented musicians. And what a set of lungs does that lead singer have! I was muchly entertained by their show. After that we caught a bit of Opeth (which had bad sound, unfortunately, and Brenda wasn’t much impressed, so we just went for drinks and some late dinner before it was time to get ready for Soilwork!
Soilwork didn’t set down their best show, unfortunately. They started off really strong, but in the middle they played some of their really old stuff, which didn’t quite do it for me. They ended very strong though, with “Stabbing the Drama” and “Nerve”, during which the crowd pretty much tore the Metal Dome down. That was GREAT!
Brenda and I emerged from the Metal Dome soaked to our undies, which is always a good sign Then it was time to hydrate and dry up aforementioned undies, and then it was time for Slipknot. Unfortunately they didn’t play their best show by a long shot. There were some technical problems in the beginning, and compared to their 2009 show they just weren’t as good. Glad I still got to see them though. And poor Corey still gets emotional when he speaks of Paul Gray who died last year

By that time we were all pretty much exhausted. We had a couple of beers to get rid of our coins, and then it was time to go to our tents and catch a bit of sleep (it was 2am or something) before we would get up early on Monday. It was said to be 34C on Monday, so we thought it’d be smart if we’d GTFO before it would become too hot, and indeed – by 9am we were at the parking lot and ready to go home.

I can’t believe how fast it all flew by. I wish it could have lasted longer… however, considered the state my body is in at the moment, maybe it’s better that it didn’t. *grins*

Graspop, I had a great time. Till we meet again! <3

More pictures to be find HERE, btw.

But when my heart swelled and I suddenly felt tears running down my face I knew it was The Only Moment We Were Alone. You know, the song that I dubbed my wedding song. My end of year song of 2005. I had not expected that it would move me so deeply to hear that song played-a-live. I mean, I thought our wedding rocked and I think the song is beyond beautiful, but something that would make me cry as if my heart was breaking? I didn’t think so. Yet there it was. It was a glorious moment in the Paradiso, and right now it’s topping my moment of the year. It was a moment so GSG that the rest of the concert – while very good – paled in comparison. By the end I was exhausted, the audience was annoying, and the music was getting too mellow for me so I was done with it. I think they didn’t build their setlist right where it comes to audience mood and tension, and that is a bit of a pity.
But they gave me The Only Moment – something I had never dreamed of wishing for, and that’s something nobody can ever take away from me anymore.

What else? There is so much to tell, but now that I’ve got the Explosions thing off my chest I suddenly don’t know anymore, haha!

• There was much sunshine
• a day on the beach with Aurélie
• a night of sushi with Brenda
• Lie’s birthday on the beach of Scheveningen where I got to see everyone again and beautiful pictures were made
• Brenda bought a house
• Lie and Bart hooked up (yeah, THAT Bart)
• lots of busy days at work
• but also a contract extension of a year & a payraise of 10% (!)

And now we have a long weekend off for Pentecost, then one more day of work, and then I have two weeks of vacation!
During which we’ll go to Provinssirock (with Johanna, and we get to see System of a Down live! *squee*), then have a two day breather, and then we’re off to Graspop Metal Meeting, where we get to see Soilwork and Slipknot.

Music wise, I am having one hell of a blast this spring, sweet people. And people-wise as well, I suppose.
Good times.