I know I always do these awards for the year; best concert, best night out, best song… but I thought it’d be fun to do this for my writing as well. After more than 200,000 words this year, I think it’s safe to say that I spent a LOT of time in other worlds this year. 90% of that time was spent in either the League or the Crystal world. And they deserve some awards as well.
Because… wow. I did have some emotional rollercoasters with my characters this year. Some things I wrote this year were edits or changes to things I did earlier – I took those out. Everything in here is written this year. Sometimes it’s a new scene or a line in an existing story, but mostly it’s just genuinely new material.
Most heartbreaking story:
[League] “Headful of Ghosts”
- “I’ll fight you, Stender. This means war. I don’t care if I lose, as long as you do, too.”
Most fun to write:
[Crystal] “Wild Licht”
In minder dan een minuut ligt hun kleding in hoopjes op de grond. Het is een race wie het eerste bij een orgasme is. Zij wint, maar het verschil is miniem.
(translation: In less than a minute their clothing is lying in heaps on the ground. It’s a race to see who reaches their orgasm first. She wins, but the difference is small.)
Most hopeful story:
[League] “Fireflies and Empty Skies”
If these would have been real bullets, Valentina would have nailed Lannie in the fucking face as much as she herself would have taken two to the chest.
In the City Arena, Valentina’s sensors only flare red and Lannie is laughing. “Got you! Damn, that was fun.”
Story that made me want to use brain bleach:
[League] “Tornado Warning”
He is gentle with her tonight.
Most painful line:
[League] “Expendable Souls”
Walter Lane: “Ask me how we fucking got here, Valentina!”
Best overall line(s):
[League] “Headful of Ghosts”
Gershan can’t help grinning. He loves a good explosion. “Yevgeny,” he barks to his right hand man over the commlink. “Can you confirm that the target was inside?”
“No, he can’t,” a familiar voice says in his ear. So close; close enough to kiss.
Close enough to put a knife to his throat.
Best character meltdown:
[League] “Last Call”
Dani Summers: I… just couldn’t. I couldn’t deal, I couldn’t do this anymore. Not after three days of straight up humiliation, lies and truth twisting. All of the insults. All of the ‘you’re a crazy bitch, Dani. You’re a menace to society, Dani. You shouldn’t be allowed to walk free, Dani.’ I had been shaking with anger for three days straight now and I lost it.
Best OTP that can never be:
[Crystal] “Bloed en Scherven”
Romain and Valeria. ”En het stomme is, soms denk ik dat we in een ander leven misschien een heel goed koppel waren geweest. Maar niet hier, niet nu, niet op deze manier.” (translation: “The stupid thing is that sometimes I think that in another life, we could have been great together. But not here, not now, not like this.”)
Best OTP, 5ever:
[League] Walter and Lannie
“Kardusen” (Lannie): “Well, that’s it, then,” I say flatly, clenching my fingers around my rifle. “I fucked up and you’re going to try to enter the Fortress. Damn you, Walter. You better not die in there.”
He tosses his own rifle and wraps his arms around me. “I won’t,” he promises, burying his face in my sweaty hair. He doesn’t seem to mind that I’m sticky and warm. I hug him back and he feels alive and strong and beautiful.
“Killing Us” (Walter): /I love you so much,/ I thought brokenly. This was it. This is what she had said yes to. /What the fuck have you done?/
Best “Wow, so that just happened”:
[League] “Red Moon”
Irina watches him, dispassionately wondering what will die first; the uplink connection that shows her the images, or Dudev. It turns out to be Dudev.
She watches the image feed anyway, until the connection is broken.
(this was a tossup between Saxa’s Euroleague victory [League] and Sirka’s murder, but Sirka won)
[Crystal] “Stof en Schitteringen”
Sirka Lentan: Mijn bebloede handen graaien in zijn uniform jas, trekken hem omhoog, en klappen hem tegen de rand van de boot. Het geluid van zijn schedel die op de metalen rand slaat, gaat door merg en been.
(translation: My bloodied hands grab his uniform coat, pull him upwards, and slam him against the edge of the boat. The sound of his skill hitting the metal edge is horrific.)
Most sympathetic newbie character:
[League] Saxa Owens, “Delusions of Grandeur”, “There Must Be Light”
I wrap my arms around him and there are hot tears burning in my eyes as I hug him tightly. “There is light, Walter. Just wait for better days. I’m here with you. I’ll be here for you.”
Best asshole moment:
[Crystal] “Bloed en Scherven”
Romain, during his faceoff with Valeria. (You’re such a douche, dude)
“Gaan we zo beginnen?” Romain stond nu ook op; hij liet zich duidelijk niet intimideren. “Wat dacht ik eigenlijk ook; het bed in duiken met een Parsiaanse; natuurlijk draait dat uit op ellende,” snauwde hij.
(translation: “Oh, so that’s how we’re going to play things?” Romain stood up as well, he didn’t let himself be intimidated. “What the hell was I thinking, sharing a bed with a Parsian; of course that’s a stupid move,” he sneered.)
[Crystal] Joy and Valeria, “Stof en Schitteringen”, “Bloed en Scherven”
Valeria nam een diepe haal van haar grassigaret en bood hem toen aan mij aan. Dit was haar manier van troost bieden, en een moment lang hield ik intens van haar.
(translation: Valeria took a drag of her gras cigarette and then offered it to me. This was her way of offering me comfort, and for one moment I loved her intensely for that.)
Best character overall:
[Crystal] Sirka Lentan, “Stof en Schitteringen”, “Bloed en Scherven”
“Sukkel,” mompel ik terwijl de auto wegscheurt van zijn bewusteloze lichaam op het asfalt. “Je had me niet moeten losmaken.”
Voor het eerst in maanden voel ik een sprankje hoop.
(translation: “Idiot,” I murmur while the car screeches away from his unconscious body on the asphalt. “You shouldn’t have untied me.” For the first time in months, I feel hopeful.
Wow! This was SO MUCH FUN!
I’ll do this again next year